My dad passed away

Trevor
Jan 12, 2018
2 min read

I posted the following on my Facebook Timeline on 8 October 2017.

I've only told a few people until now, but this morning (yesterday now my time), my dad passed away. He'd had throat cancer for awhile, so it wasn't really a surprise. I still haven't really reacted, and while my family and friends who know my history with him have told me that they understand why, I did have one person tell me earlier that I'm a sociopath for "not showing emotion" about it. I'm sad, obviously, but we haven't really been close for years. I was told last night that he didn't have long left, and I assumed that meant a couple of days, so I was going to call him after church this morning, but he passed even before then. So I didn't get to make that call. Last time we spoke was 4 April 2014, the night before I left for Ohio. He'd told me that I was bound to fail because he did, and that when I am "forced to move back in six months" I could sleep on his floor. I was tired of all the drama, so decided to just not call again. Do I regret it? Currently no. But I'm sure later on (weeks, months, years, etc) I will. Don't get me wrong, I didn't hate him or anything, and I long ago forgave him for everything he put me through when I was little and throughout my life, I just made a conscious decision to cut out the drama.

I wasn't going to do a post, but I thought about it and that sociopath comment really annoyed me. Granted, it was only one person, and the people who matter understand why I reacted the way I did, but I thought it'd probably be better if I at least publicly addressed it. I'm pretty sure my manager thought I was making it up when I casually told her as I was clocking out tonight. She said, "Really? So why are you here if your dad really died this morning". I told her we weren't close and she said, "Ah" and left it at that.

I don't know how to end this post, so here's every picture of him that I have in my Facebook albums. There's even a picture of him hugging my grandmother, his mother, who also passed away recently.