Encounter with Billy

As anyone who has read my Entry about what happened in 2007 would know, Billy is the guy who "r"d me. I've had a few encounters with him over the years, and every time I even saw him from a distance, I would become terrified. Many times, I would text my friends afterward and have to be talked back into sanity.

On Friday, I got on the bus, and who was sitting in the front? Billy. He said hi.

I said, "Oh, hi Billy!", and sat across from him. He asked how I am doing and I said, "I've been good. I'm a photographer now," and then I told him about my website (not this one, obviously. I had a photography site that I've since closed). He thought it was great. After that, we just chatted about different things until he reached his stop.

I sat there the rest of the busride thinking about what had just happened. The whole chat, my mind had been asking why I was talking with him, but I felt calm. It felt like talking with anybody else

Is it possible I am "over it"? I discussed it with one of my bestfriends, who is a member of PWP as well, and she said it sounds like I have forgiven him and moved on, in a sense. It's always possible something could trigger me later on. For example, I always thought I was over what happened when I was little, until one night at my then-girlfriend's house there was a fight between her mother and grandmother and all the memories came flooding back. But what I do know is that it seems to have passed for now.